Sunday, March 27, 2011

Picture by Sean from The Capital News
What a roller coaster week.
A Facebook group going viral, much media attention (above picture taken by Sean of The Capital News), A day long photo-shoot for the Kelowna Elizabeth Fry Society a spring art show and a visit from Dave
There's a horse sitting on my chest square between that dip in the center of my collar bone. It won't get up and I've been dragging it around since Thursday. It took up residence there the other day when I saw my husband across the parking lot of the coffee shop we'd agreed to meet at.

I had watched the back end of his van drive away exactly 6 weeks earlier, turn the corner just below my studio, outside of the Starbucks where we'd had coffee, and drive off. I slipped into my little car and sobbed an audible no, no, no that I didn't recognize as my own voice. In that instant I recognized my deep and impossible Love that couldn't stay as it was but that hadn't yet been re-invented. Limbo. It felt as though someone had peeled my skin off and I was raw and pure pain incarnate for a few days..... time as they say does heel wounds. After my token days of drama I emerged and got on with the prospect of being the very best, yet hugely insufficient mother, I could be and continue on with building my personal artist brand.  I was busy yet full and satisfied. I had many moments of worry and doubt in the job I was doing with the kids on my own but the ability to make decisions without an argument over every little thing was refreshing.
Now, I am back at that place I had left. The painful alone place, despite being surrounded by the most amazing generous loving people. The One that used to warm my feet at night is gone in another direction. I'll be OK, I really don't want pity. I'm going to keep going and make art and just Love everyone to the Max.
On to new and Fabulous amazing things, on my own

Friday, March 18, 2011

Well, this day is alive with the spirit of giving creativity. On Wednesday I had a tiny sprout of an idea to give somehow, to Japan, inspired by my friend Tomoe. I thought, "I have to do something", just to make myself feel useful. I'm a big believer that this Earth school is fraught with struggle and that charity for the sake of merely helping others is a one dimensional approach. With that in mind my intention of helping is only ever to make myself a conduit of Love and creating a ripple effect of that Love. I can't ever take someone else's learning opportunity away from them but I can create a ripple of Love.
With my little idea of starting a facebook group called ARTISTS FOR JAPAN on Wednesday afternoon amazing things are happening. This morning I awoke to 175 emails in my inbox and our group has grown to 311 people. I'm flying by the seat of my pants, trying to keep up with the response. I have no idea how to do this but I'm finding that the answers are coming in on real time, just as I need them. Art Saves.

this is the painting I'm donating to be auctioned. 'Poppies' 12"x12"

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

The healing power of creative journaling and zentangling

A couple of weeks ago I was honored to stand in front of six beautiful women and share what I have learned about Creative Journaling and Mixed Media. It was two Saturday afternoon's of creativity and good, self-exploring conversation. Since then I have seldom stopped doodling in My Moleskine journal. One of the participants in my class shared a new art form with us called zentangle I hope everyone goes and checks it out as well as looking at all the youtube vids on the topic.

Here is one of my lame first attempts at this sport. I absolutely love doing it  and am excited to share this with my Mixed Media workshops in the future. Journaling is such a healing art form and doodling or Zentangling, as it's now known, is no exception.  I'm considering getting a certification, yup you heard me! You can become a certified instructor. I think this whole visual creative journaling is my new schtick and I love passing everything I know on to anyone who wants deeper self expression and possibly healing in a safe private way. coming up at The Vernon Public Art Gallery is my journaling workshop, three Saturdays: May 21st, 28th and June 4th. call (250)545.3173 or for more information. all are welcome!