I've been flying under the radar since January, not blogging. I made a huge life decision which brought about change. Upon the realization that I am, amongst other things, an addict and my drug of choice being food I gave up eating flour, sugar and all potential binge foods. I think I was using food to deal with my mental illness and it had gotten out of control.
It has been a process of letting go of my coping mechanism completely and replacing it with something new. I'm not sure how to write about the process and how much to divulge. I'm fine with the inherent messiness of bi-polar and writing about it, up until now, seemed natural and cathartic. Writing about a food addiction is entirely another thing.
I can start by saying my new lifestyle has led to me weighing 43 lbs less than I did in January! I've gone from wearing a size 16 to a size 8. I feel healthier than I have in my adult life and I truly believe that releasing my issues with eating and facing them everyday with support has led to mental, emotional and physical well being.